It has been a while since I last posted something relatively intellectual and intelligent right? So, I was thinking, what is intelligent? I don't want to come out sounding like some brainless, rambling girl who has no idea what she is talking about half the time.
After hours of stoning, leaving this page stagnant and surfing the net...
I think I can be an anthropologist. For the benefit of those who have no idea what is that, it is someone who studies patterns and characters of people. Ya, the idea is there. Because I just have this fascination on people, be it in real life, their character or trapping them in watches. Ya, I just love the Fossil watches which make people dance or do aerobics in them. Anyways, that's out of the point. Everyone are hypocrites. Don't bother trying to argue with me on this point because when you really sit down and think hard, you will realise that you have been one at some point of your life. I was thinking, why do people have to be hypocrites? Why can't they just express what they are REALLY thinking and solve the problems once and for all? Then, I found the answer while I was blog-surfing. Being hypocrital is a mask for people to hide behind. Everyone hide behind different masks which serve different purposes. For some sense of security, I think. So, what will happen when people take off their masks? Do they really get very vulnerable? Is that why they prefer to act as someone else instead of being themselves? Really. How many times when you look at the behaviour of someone and wonder, how real is he actually? How many times when you look at people whom you think you know best and wonder what is his actual true self?(the gender reference is just used as a general term, so guys don't get offended..) Away from hypocrisy, I wonder how many people really understand the implications of their actions? Do they do things they do because they really want it to happen that way or because everyone else is doing the same thing? Where is the sense of identity? So many questions, but no answers. I can feel a big change in my life. I can feel it strongly in my gut. I feel that I am getting more and more to be a perfectionist. I question everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Does education teaches us to question? To be critical? To disregard all thoughts we had about any issues and start analysing things again from scratch? Perfectionist = living in own world? I feel that I'm living in my own world more and more. I am getting very comfortable with myself. Too comfortable, in fact. I used to think that I can't live without friends, I can't live without people around me. As time goes by, I realised that I was actually quite wrong. In fact, I kind of enjoy isolation, sometimes. Oh no, am I suffering from 'zi bi zhen'? If you guys actually notice, even my language use is getting different. I am refraining from using Singlish much and a considerably lackage(invented word) of my signature 'haha's. Signs of turning into a perfectionist? Well, I don't know. This is getting too long for comfort. Shall stop here. Ta.
