In the past, I used to hate going out alone as I bothered about what people thought of me. But as time goes by, my thinking changed. Well, maybe it's because I'm more matured but I am no longer bothered by what others think. Not entirely though. I always see things more clearly when I'm alone. Ever since I started working and started travelling around Singapore, I see a common trend in Singaporeans. They are freaking selfish and inconsiderate. On the train during the morning crowd, I see people reading newspapers with their arms wide open when there are like hundred others who have difficulty even standing still. On the bus, I see and even experienced people trying to squeeze their way through the crowd when it is obvious that the bus is packed. There was once when the bus was super packed and I was really squeezed to my minimal space. So when there are people who are going to alight, I will inevitably push the people behind me abit right? It's normal. And this woman behind me seems to think that I am intentionally trying to deprive her of HER space and she pushed back! My gosh! Can you imagine the scene? Anyway after a while, she ignored everyone else and squeezed all the way to the middle for who-knows-what reason. And today when I was buying food, a few students were standing less than 15cm away behind me, yakking away. I mean I don't mind people talking, well I talk too. But NOT when your words practically get absorbed into the hair of the person in front right? Well that was my situation. I really had a mind to turn back and give them a scolding to stop talking into my hair. But being the nice person I am, of course I didn't do anything. Those are just some of my observations and experiences of typical Singaporeans. And there are more incidents which I don't really want to narrate all here. I once had a class discussion about the topic of Singaporeans. We were talking about the characteristics of Singaporeans and what traits are we proud of. In the end, we came to a conclusion that there is really not much good traits in Singaporeans. Is it really true? Being the optimist I always (or rather most of the time) am, I started to observe. But guess what, even this optimist can't justify Singaporeans' actions and good traits. Yesterday, a friend was commenting about how it is weird that you are always eager to open your arms to help others but when you need help, those whom you had offered help will not return the offer. It's true, I admit. But do you really do things hoping that you get something in return? I know no matter how much you say that you don't care on the surface, there will always be a small thought at the back of your mind hoping that you will really get something in return. I don't know if it is really just me being TOO optimistic or too ideal, I don't really expect anything in return. I mean although I might want something but in reality I know that my expectations will not be met. Well, I hope you guys can understand me. Anyway, what I want to say is that don't do things expecting people to return the favour. Offer help when you can. Offer money when you can. Offer anything you can give. Even if the particular individual/group won't return the favour when you are in need, help will come from the most unexpected places. And this cycle goes on. I don't know how many people actually think this way but apparently not alot, considering the behaviour I have seen from people. Well, it's not really a very realistic thought too, when everyone thinks of their own advantages and themselves before everything else. Guess I can't really do much...
