Fulfilling life. How many people actually have that? How many people actually live life like that? Enough to claim that they are living a fulfilling life? I tried checking the dictionary for the definition of fulfilling life but I can't seem to find it. Does it mean that the meaning is ambigous? I guess so. Everyone has different ideas about how should a fulfilling life be. I believe that if you ask 10 different people, you will most probably get 10 different answers. So, this brings us back to the question that I am curious about: What is a fulfilling life?
Is it working your ass off, trying to earn as much money as you can before you grow old and useless? Is it finding a perfect job, with the perfect paycheck and earning the respect and envy of many others? Or is it the ability and courage to do what pleases you, according to your preferences, hobbies, interest and passion, with no regards to the money you will get? What is it?
For my case, I believe that I am still searching for the answer. A few months ago when my long-awaited break started, I thought that it was practically heaven. Not having to do anything, no more studying and cramming. I thought my life was finally fulfilled. I had fulfilled my duty of finishing my pre-u studies. But after a while, I got sick and tired of the life I was living and found a job. Initially, the feeling I got for my ability to find a job was fulfilling and satisfying but now I am starting to wonder. Is working fulfilling? What is actually fulfilling? Maybe whatever I am doing now is just something temporary but what is going to happen in the future? Am I really able to find my own fulfilling life and live it? I really have no idea. With the future looking bleak and the acceptable behaviour and social norms not being too bright, I really do start to worry about my future life. Instead of trying to live life as I deem fulfilling, I am afraid that I might too one day fall into the trap set up society, working my ass off for money, reputation, fame and everything else materialistic. In the process forgetting my passion, interest and desire to do things I would really enjoy.
So dear friends out there, if you one day discover or suspect that I am turning out to be another duplicate citizen that the society is creating now, please please guide me back to the correct path can?!~
