For those who thinks that having a boyfriend is the cool and 'in' thing, I think all of you guys are totally wrong.. What's so good about having someone to report all your actions to? It's even worse if the guy is insensitive.. I'm not referring to ALL the guys out there because I know that there are still some guys who will make VERY good boyfriends but I think that most of them are scum. No offense to guys but please think over it carefully, do you think you will make a good boyfriend? Maybe it's because I have high expectations but nevertheless, no guys has yet to make me go ga-ga over him and willingly report to him. Found out that I have been quite anti-guys these few days.. ALL THANKS to someone out there..
Haiz.. People say 'distance makes the heart fonder' (or something like that) but it doesn't seem to apply to me.. Friends have been asking me if I miss him but I don't really think so.. All he can do is to piss me off. Although I can't blame him all the time because I truly believe that he doesn't know that his actions had pissed me off, but I just can't help it. After 1 whole week of field camp, I know that he's tired and sick, but is it such a chore to even call me? Not that I really want his calls but he doesn't even has the intention to call. Which boyfriend would only reply me messages that doesn't really answer my questions to him in my messages to him? Had not wanted to vent my frustrations but I really need to complain.. haha..
I asked him do I actually make a difference in his life.. Does it matter if I'm here or not? As ALL boyfriends would say, he said yes, the exact words being "it makes a diff k" and go on claiming that I was thinking too much. Hah! Would I ask him these questions if he had not acted in such a manner? He was well enough to go out with friends and catch up today but when he reach home, he was suddenly sick, in fact too sick to even talk to me on the phone.. Boyfriends, such troublesome creatures. Relationships, such irritating restrictions. Seriously thinking of ending such a ridiculous relationship.. What for staying in such a difficult and restraining postition? I could spend my time being a happy single and find someone who will really think that I mean alot to him. haha.. Shall consider this option..
Friends and others who are desperately looking for boyfriends, for reasons ranging from having someone to care for you to flaunting them to friends, I would advice you not to bother. Boyfriends bring you nothing but trouble, irritation, restrictions and pain. Those still in the initial bliss of being in a relationship, congrats but please be prepared to have that end in a while. Another thing, please please do NOT give up your friends just because your boyfriends say so. If you do that, you will end up in a pitiful state when you guys break up. As I always say, guys are useless and insensitive creatures who do not have enough space in their brains and heart for another person(sometimes). Friends are still the best people in the world! Boyfriends, who cares? haha..
