Tuesday, May 18, 2004, 10:51 pm :
I have no idea how to start this entry because my mind is entirely blank now, for whatever reason I do not know. Maybe its the lousy weather.. It had caused my normally healthy body to fall sick twice in 2 weeks! Wow.. What an achievement to actually get MCs 3 days in 2 consecutive weeks. First for stomach flu, then for eye infection. Curse the weather!! What hot and humid days ahead of us. Think all these are just nonsense to wake my mind up a little to try to think of something to blog about. All these are quite rubbish but I think that I simply just like to type. Can you believe that I once had an ambition, which was to be a typist.. haha.. People have great and admirable ones like doctors, police or lawyers and I wanted to be a typist. This shows how screwed I was when I was young.. haha..
Talking about ambitions, my dad has been asking me what I wanted to do after my studies, as in what course to take IF i get into the university. The answer I gave him was a sheepish smile. I had always wanted to take up
archaeology and be a future archaeologist but my mum, as the practical person she is, discouraged me cos she claimed that there's no future in it. That day, after a talk with her friends, she came home and tried to psycho me to take up
accountacy. Not that I mind but if that's the case, I might as well go to poly in the first place and to start on some heavy accounting biz? But seriously, those who know me, CAN YOU IMAGINE ME AS AN ACCOUNTANT WITH A ROUTINE LIFTSYLE AND NO SOCIAL LIFE? Honestly, I can't.. haha.. So people out there, any suggestions for future careers? haha.. but but but... I have to buck up on my studies first before thinking so far. With my lousy results now, even if I bribe the lousiest universities, they will also not accept me...!! I need miracles. Especially in my maths.
Saw my secondary school band teacher-in-charge today on the bus, he claimed that his maths was also damn lousy and adviced me to bang hard on the TYS in order to get results.. How easy for him to say since he had already escaped the hell-hole which students have to be cooped in. Think my expression here is getting bad.. If LPH ever gets to see this, she will just puke!! He is just like the GTO teacher who plays around with his students and make them 'mei da mei xiao' to him. haha.. A geog teacher.. But that's not the point, another sign that I am just simply NOT prepared for 'A' levels is my mid-yr results.. It's absolutely horrendous!!
Failed: GP and Maths
Passed: English Lit
Unknown: History (getting back tmr but I'm not going to sch..)
First, the failures. Both failed subjects are enough to make me die.. But, actually both are expected.. I had not yet passed maths before since I stepped into YJC, although miraculously I managed to secure an A2 in my 'O' levels. Of course, there are many people and things to be blamed.
1. My J1 maths teacher, whom in my opinion, is the worst teacher I've ever met.(I shan't reveal the name..) Just my luck..
2. My secondary school: Presbyterian High School. Blame them for only having one class taking A Maths in my cohort. Without ANY A Maths foundation, quoting from Mr Loke, "I'm just going to suffer and die a horrible death." (vaguly like that)
3. The studying environment of YJC and my old house in Thomson. Lack of light and motivation and fresh air.
4. Of course, I'll hate to admit but there's always myself to be blamed. Cannot pin all the blame on others. Lack of motivation and determination on my part to tackle maths which is fast becoming a horror to me.
But, thankfully I have Mrs Kwang and a tutor now to try to salvage whatever that can be saved for my Maths. haha..
Next, GP is also another subject that I have been expecting to fail. Although I came from the AG group and obtained an A2 for 'O' levels, I had never once passed a major exams since the abolishment of AG groups and I had no choice but to get LPH as my GP teacher. Actually, I seriously suspect that she hates me. She has extremely high expectations of me just because I'm supposedly to be more advanced in my language, just because I was from the AG group. She has been scolding me for my language and expression and threatening me that I will fail the language component in my essays and compre eventually. Think she's waiting for a chance to just fail me straight. Haiz... Although she was quite nice to me today after lessons and wasn't demanding and fuming at my lousy results, which was a surprise to me, I think she still has high expectations of me. How, oh how am I supposed to meet her expectations?? What pressure.. haha..
Though I had barely passed English Lit, I think that its something worth celebrating because I did not touch the subject at all.. haha.. Those who never take Lit will think that its an easy subject to pass but YOU ARE WRONG!! It's not as easy as you think.. Haiz.. I'm quite sian of talking about the results already. Moreover, I'm hungry.. haha..
Happie happie.. My birthday today~! BIRTHDAY! BIRTHDAY!
haha.. I'm determined to be VERY happy this year because I'm turning
18!! hehe.. Though many people claimed that I don't look like my age, esp
KUTU, who NEVER gives up a chance to suan me, I'm still happy. Not going sch tmr.. haha.. Gonna to have swollen eyes again.. haha.. Sports meet tmr also.. Good luck to Canberra house and hope they win.. haha.. Think I've blogged enough.. Ciao~~! Wish me hApPi bIrThdAy!! lOlZ..
